Acceleration

The quickening that is happening right now is continually becoming even more speedy as we zip through the halls of space and time.

I have been feeling this more and more, and have often joked with my dear friend Jenna that the word “intense” has all but lost its meaning, and that we need a new word to more accurately describe what we are experiencing these days. (“Intensosity” perhaps?)

And I am noticing that many of the desires that I have held in my heart with such longing for years and years are now finally beginning to sprout. It’s incredible. AND completely overwhelming.

Through the years I have learned how to take better and better care of myself, how to love myself inside and out, and how to move through the more turbulent times with a greater sense of ease and grace. And these practices have evolved through the years as I have, and now I find myself in a brand new territory, where much of what I have done in the past no longer works the way that it used to.

I am not used to being so overwhelmed with GOODNESS, with the soul food for which I have prayed and prayed. And I am SO grateful for all of it, and still learning how to take it all in in a way that allows me to integrate and assimilate the full spectrum of nutrients that are being fed to me on a silver platter by Goddess herself.

How many nights have I lay in bed wishing, wishing, wishing on the moon and stars that I could be surrounded by the community of loving, supportive friends that I knew were out there for me somewhere? How many times have I prayed for a life in which I was living full, full days, enjoying to the fullest, living life as the celebration that I knew it could be? And how many times have I cried and cried, longing for more clarity and direction around my purpose?

And suddenly these desires are crystalizing into reality right before my eyes. I now live in a community in which I could easily spend all day every day having phenomenal, mind-blowingly beautiful conversations that facilitate my evolution through their profound insights and sharing of experiences. I have so many options that lie before me each and every day that I feel scattered, torn, overwhelmed by the goodness. And lately the light of clarity is shining so brightly on some very beautiful ideas that I will surely bring to fruition through time, plenty of water, and tender loving care.

I have prayed for abundance, and now it is pouring in, literally flooding my life with its generosity and blessings. And all of this brings a new set of challenges to move through. “Ask and you shall receive.” And now it’s time to really learn how to allow myself to receive this cascading waterfall of goodness that is upon me.

I promise that I’m not complaining, only processing. I’m learning a new way of being because each day feels so profoundly different than the day before, and the only way to navigate gracefully is to live fully in my heart space. Love is the way now. Logic and the mind can no longer serve as reliable navigational tools in the way that they one did.

So I pray for grace, as always. I pray for ease and surrender. I pray for impeccable discernment, and that I may digest and assimilate the amazingness that is here in my life now. And I know that as I more and more fully master this new way of being, that I will be given more and more to work with, to master, and to enjoy.

Much gratitude fills my heart as I write this post tonight. Thank you for reading, and thank you for being.

All love to you.

Rebirth

Today is a particularly potent day in the life. At the moment I am sitting at Whole Foods, feeling safe and grateful. I just narrowly escaped a tree falling on my car during a wild thunderstorm here in Washington, D.C.

The day began by moving most of my things into storage in the basement of the house I have been living in in Takoma Park, Maryland for the past five month. It’s been so very lovely to share this house with some wonderful people, and I have grown to really love Maryland and the D.C. metro area. I feel glad to be here, and there are so many wonderful people here who I now call friends.

After I put my boxes in the basement, I loaded up my car with the things that I anticipate wanting to have with me during the month of July, and I left the house feeling extremely somber and apprehensive, tender and vulnerable.

What does the future hold? We never can really know. And yet, some things are more predictable, dependable, stable, and secure than others. If I am paying rent to live somewhere, there is a much higher chance that my place to live is stable, secure. No longer am I in this situation. I have again taken a giant leap of faith and now find myself blowing with the wind in this magnificent, magical Universe.

After I left the house, I parked my car a few blocks away and walked down to the creek that I love so much. Nearly every day, I wake up and walk along Sligo Creek. I have enjoyed so many hours writing and meditating, phone conversations, walks with friends, and walks in solitude along this gorgeous area of Takoma Park. And today I bid her farewell. For now. I sat on a rock along the creek and I cried. Deep sadness washed over me. I felt very, very alone in a very big world.

In one hand I held a leaf, and in the other a piece of wood. Both pieces were from dear friends on whom I have leaned upon this past month as I have walked this transitional transformational path. These sisters have been rocks of support as I made the decision to leave the house I was living in and to trust that I will continue to be cared for as I walk in the metaphorical darkness.

And in this moment it was time to release these pieces back into their natural setting. I released them to affirm my existence as a sovereign being here on the Earth. I am so grateful for my friends and family. And for all the forces of Nature that support me as I walk this long, beautiful road, as I journey from place to place, following my heart and intuition, even when the logical part of me would rather I live a more conventional life.

And yet, a sovereign being I am, and this is a very empowering piece of truth to affirm, especially as I am finding myself once again “on The Road.” The Road is a very familiar place to me, and it’s also a place that I had not anticipated revisiting so soon.

After my most recent chapter of gypsy living, I was exhausted and desperate to get “off The Road.” Please God, please let me live somewhere, let me have a normal life with a home and a community and steady work.

And I had it. For one fleeting moment, it feels. And here I am again, my car is full of my possessions, and tonight I will sleep at my friends’ house in Bethesda, Maryland. I am so blessed to have such wonderful, loving, supportive friends. So very blessed.

So I sit here feeling incredibly vulnerable. I have set my intentions time and time again, writing them down and speaking them aloud. I feel in my heart that God hears me when I pray, that the Universe supports me in manifesting my desires, that Nature is organizing something magnificent on my behalf and on the behalf of the Whole.

So just be patient, Erin, I have told myself time and time again. Trust. Allow life to unfold in all its stunning perfection, it’s divine design, its cosmically magical alignment.

And yet, there is a part of me that is trembling. “This is not what I want!” part of me is crying. I want a home, a community, a stable life! I want to know where I will sleep, work, record my music, be with my friends. I want to know that I am safe and secure and protected.

The truth is that I AM safe and secure and protected. In each and every moment, life is exactly as it should be. This is absolute truth, and yet there is a part of me that feels confused.

And then there is a part of me that is remembering that I chose this. I asked for a magnificent life, and this is what I am creating with each and every breath.

I saw Woody Allen’s new film “Midnight in Paris” the other night and it really touched my heart. I saw these fabulous artists, writers, and musicians from the 1920’s hanging out at Gertrude Stein’s house in Paris, and it stirred something in my heart.

I want to live in a community of artists like this. I want to have friends around me with whom I am creating and recording music, with whom I am working with on lots of different co-creative collaborative projects. My desire is to create art, beauty, events, and music to uplift, inspire, heal, and connect people with their innermost Selves.

I have so many ideas, dreams, inspired aspirations. I am here to raise the vibration here on the Earth. I am here to dream a more and more beautiful world into being. I am here to express and create and dance and sing and live life as the celebration that it is. I am here to radiate joy and shine my light and sing my heart’s song.

I lay down my life on the sacred altar before God, and ask that I be used as a divine vessel of grace, inspiration, Love, and pure joy.

And I ask that the support organize itself around me, so that I can work in the way that I love to work, so that I can sing and feel grounded and supported in a beautiful, loving, creative community of like-hearted souls.

This is what I am creating.

I will be staying with my friends in Bethesda for a few nights, and after this I know not where I will go. I know not how the Universe will enfold me in Her warm and loving arms. I have leapt and I will be caught. I already AM caught, and I stay grounded in this truth as I stay grounded in the present moment of Now.

A great story is being written; I am entering a dramatically more epic and beautiful chapter than I can even imagine.

I love living in the D.C. area, and I am also completely open to relocating again. I am a free bird, ready to go wherever the divine flow carries me. I am moving into a beautiful new space, perhaps a house sitting opportunity which will give me some time to work on my creative projects. This part of the story is yet to be written.

I am open and I am ready. We are living in extraordinarily times here on Planet Earth. It’s 2011 and so much is changing so quickly. We are accelerating into a New Paradigm in which Love and Truth regain their rightful place as the main focus of our attention. And I am here to be a part of it. I am here to sing my song, to play my note, to share my heart and gifts with the world in the way that only I can.

I have been cleared for takeoff, and all of last month I was speeding down the runway. I now take flight, and I am grateful for the prayers and blessings and grace and miracles that fill my heart and my life.

Thank you for being a part of this journey. I am here to reflect back to you your own divine purpose, and your own beauty and light.

Can you see it?

It’s so, so beautiful.

Tripping Over Joy

What is the difference
Between your experience of Existence
And that of a saint?
The saint knows
That the spiritual path
Is a sublime chess game with God
And that the Beloved
Has just made such a Fantastic Move
That the saint is now continually
Tripping over Joy
And bursting out in Laughter
And saying, “I Surrender!”
Whereas, my dear,
I am afraid you still think
You have a thousand serious moves.

-Hafiz

Hundreds Protest Global Warming

This is so silly and cute, and yet it does make a significant statement. There is a lot of debate right now about whether or not it's true that carbon emissions are causing global temperatures to fluctuate. To me, this is nothing but a distraction from the truth of what is really happening. As long as we stay caught up in the nit picking little details of these scientific studies and debates, we can lie to ourselves about what we are doing to our planet. But if we really take a long, hard look at the global situation, there is no way to deceive ourselves into thinking that there is any possibility that we can continue to act as we have been acting and survive as a species.

We are destroying the forests which give us the plant species that we need to eat and the oxygen that we need to breathe. We are filling our landfills at an alarming rate. And because modern landfills are lined on the bottom with clay and plastic to keep waste from escaping into the soil and are covered daily with a layer of earth to reduce odor, the garbage within receives little air, water, or sunlight. This means that even things like paper and food scraps, are more likely to mummify than decompose.

For the most part, I have stepped out of fear about all of this because I have come to realize that the Earth will be fine. She will heal Herself and continue on, with or without human beings. I do feel pretty sad though sometimes because I really would like to see humanity triumph in the end, overcoming our dark sides and stepping into a place of empowerment, healing, and light.

We, as a human speices, are acting like parasites on the generous and loving Mother who both gave us life and sustains our lives by nourishing us with everything we need. And at this moment in history we are deciding with our choices and actions whether or not we wish to continue living here. Either way, the Universe just keeps on going, growing, evolving, creating, and destroying. With, or without us.

It's interesting to be part of the human race at this fork in the road. I am curious to find out which road we will choose. We have free will, so it's completely up to us. And it's not up to one of us or a few of us because we are all in this together.

And we must choose soon because in order to take the path in which we choose to sustain our lives here, we must take action NOW. If we truly want to survive, then we must actually make our survival a top priority and stop bickering over the details, stop killing one another for resources, stop acting like wasteful, selfish, spoiled children who just take and take and take without thinking of the consequences, and actually get to work.

Truly, our survivial depends on us.

The Circle

There is a circle here ....

There is a web

A network

Strands connecting

Those who share the vision

Who feel the hope

Who sense the mystery

We touch life

We hear the planet’s pulse

We work quietly

Together

And alone

Each task

Each piece

Each a part of wholeness

There is a circle here ....

This is a Hopi poem that is circular in nature, meaning it ends where it begins. It is meant to be repeated four times, once for each of the four directions and the four races of humankind.

Seed Meditation - Bursting Forth

I wrote on the last morning of my Woman Within weekend after a seed meditation. I whole heartedly recommend Woman Within for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Infinite possibility exists within me and I know the new life I am creating for myself. I can feel it, see it, taste it, and smell it. I know it. I’ve been dreaming it, seeing it, writing it into being for years now, and the seed has sprouted this morning. The new life has burst forth into being, been born into life, into manifestation, into reality.

I am a brand new woman today, although my soul is ancient & eternal. I know the Truth of who I Am. I know my birthright. My heart has been emptied of all impurities and is now full of white light and pink femininity, like the energy of a rose quartz crystal.

I have gone through the pain of the dark confinement and growing pains of seed-dom, and now feel the shining light of love & grace upon my radiant, blissful, smiling face. I am a beautiful green being, reaching always joyfully toward the light of the sun, the Truth, the divine, the infinite.

I am woman. I am empowered, graceful, beautiful, feminine woman. I am, I am, I am.

Amen, halleluia. Thank you, God. Thank you, Goddess.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

A True Fairytale

I wrote this during my Woman Within weekend, which I whole heartedly recommend for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful princess. She was the most powerful woman in all the land. But she was locked in a cage of fear.

She felt sometimes resigned, apathetic, and victimized. And when she felt like this she would sulk in her cage and give up hope.

And at other times she would feel a lot of anger & passion and she would stand up and rattle the bars, screaming in a rage for someone to let her out. She had some very beautiful work to do in the world that she could not do from within the cage. She was on the Earth to shed & spread light, and she had a burning fire in her belly to fulfill the purpose of her life.

And one day, a very beautiful, amazing, powerful thing happened. She became aware that the cage was made of the fear that her mind had created. She knew then that her cage was only a thought. A strong thought that had been reinforced over & over through time by her parents, herself, and others around her as well.

And she knew that she could unthink the cage by using positive affirmations to make it disappear. She knew it was her responsibility to create the reality that she wanted.

At first this realization & awareness felt exciting & liberating. But soon a new fear set in – a fear of taking responsibility for this ability & power. And so she continued to vacillate between resignation & rage, between feeling victimized and attempting to control everything around her in a way that did not allow any room for God’s will.

And then one day she snapped. Like a sudden popping, like a kernel of popping corn that has reached the temperature threshold that it needs to reach in order to blossom into a delicious piece of fluffy popcorn, she popped.

She, in that instant, decided that it was time, from that moment on, to live fully in her power. To take full responsibility for it and to use it well. The heating process, the process of talking, writing, and contemplating about all of this, is not to be disregarded. This was an important part of her journey and needs to be acknowledged.

But in the moment in which she “popped” she left this process in the past and stepped fully, boldly, courageously, strongly, radiantly into a brand new reality.

She became a queen – Queen Erin. She became a fully empowered adult woman. She began a beautiful new chapter of her life. She emerged as a caterpillar emerges as a butterfly from its cocoon, smiling brilliantly, seeing the world with its new eyes, as if for the first time.

And in this moment, eyes welled up with tears of gratitude & bliss, awe & wonder at the magic of the Universe, this transformed Queen Erin began to shine her light in the way she knew she had come to the Earth to do. She sang, she danced, she wrote, she celebrated the goodness of it all, fully inspired.

And this happiness, this light, rippled out to all the world.

And it was good.

The End.